dear Allah

I always thought that "bahagia dunia akhirat" was a cliche wish

 

but now I want it :'(

"What is your dream?" - Mary Stayed Out All Night

I've been watching korean drama titled 'Mary Stayed Out All Night' for these past 3 weeks. and I really like this drama.. :}

the story line is about an indie-band-singer named Mu Gyul who always wants to have a free life by never getting marriage and never having any commitment for more than a month with any woman. he becomes so aphaty to any relationships because of his mother giving birth to him at the age of 17 and never took care of him. so he lives in any relatives houses and never understand the feeling of family warmth.

in the other side, a girl named Mae Ri were dropped out from her college -majoring Korean Literature- because of her father's business going bankrupt. since her father were wanted by many debt collector, Mae Ri have to live in her apartment alone. she often feels lonely and miss the feeling of having a complete family, since her mother was passed away when she was 6. 

They meet accidentally in a car crush. Mae Ri hit Mu Gyul while driving in Hong Dae (Indie Area in South Korea). Mu Gyul is fine, but Mae Ri afraid of being charged in the next following days, so she go follows Mu Gyul to make him signed a letter of agreement. 

but..... as the drama rules, things are not going to be as simple as that.. many cute things happened. you have to watch it by yourself. I do recomend this drama sooo much! ;)

oh ya.. there are several fave scene of mine. but I'll share one.. I forgot in what episode, but the conversation between Mu Gyul and Mae Ri related to dreams, touch me.

Mae Ri : What is your dream? 

Will you spend the rest of your life playing music?

Mu Gyul : This is how I live.

Mae Ri : I envy you.

Mu Gyul : And you? What is your dream?

Mae Ri : I want to have a simple life.

Mu Gyul : Eh? That's your dream?

Mae Ri : Yes. There's a mom when I get home. 

I don't have to suffer from dad's financial crisis. 

I could go back to college, without being afraid of can not afford it.

Mu Gyul : You really had a hard times, aren't you?

Mae Ri : Aaaah... Yes! *wide smile*

and after the stuffy atmosphere because of the heavy conversation, they were kidding and joking again. what a simple end for a serious conversation...

as Mae Ri said that she wants to have a simple life, so do I. I also looking for a simple life, since my dream is living a simple life with a simple person. doing simple things together, going anywhere we wants to spend the time, driving all night, go working again in the morning, get back home after office hours, watching football match with snack on hands, commenting on them, go watching indie music performances in the weekend, take a lot of photoshot in amateur photo session then share it into social media. not only sharing picture or story, but sharing about how happy our simple life could be. 

hummmm.... but it becomes so much ya?

too much derivative for a simple single wants :))

whatever lah!

the point is only simple. 

simple. simple. simple. simple. simple. simple. simple. 

it ain't over yet

semangat fichaaaa.... 

semangat semangat semangat semangaatttttt.......

and I'm dreaming about...

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years

gue lagi suka banget sama lagunya Christina Perri - A Thousand Years. tiap nyalain music player di bb, lagu pertama yang pengen didenger pasti itu. tiap nyalain laptop, lagu pertama yang diputer di windows media player juga itu. sampe di kamar mandi pun, nyanyi2-nya lagu itu.

awal denger dari radio (kayanya). tapi seperti biasa, gue gak pernah ngeh siapa yang nyanyi dan judul lagunya apa. sampe pas nikahan cuple awal mei kemaren, perjalanan pulang, denger radio, wina nyanyi2. dan karena penasaran yang sudah tak terbendung lagi plus ada akses di depan mata, gue tanya lah. waktu wina bilang Christina Perri, komentar gue langsung "ah, dia mah nyanyinya galau2 mulu" karena emang gue gak merhatiin liriknya. hhe.. trus dikasitau deh sama doi kalo lagu ini original soundtrack-nya breaking down, tentang bella yang akhirnya bla..bla..bla juga sama edward. ke-kepo-an gue pun semakin menjadi-jadi. sampe akhirnya baru minggu lalu sempet browsing vidio klip-nya di youtube. dan ternyata, unyuuu~ 

humpfhh.. (*hembusan nafas panjang pertama)

aku juga mau kaya bella :'|

selain nyokap-bokap yang emang udah semakin nanya2, gue juga udah mulai mikirin sih. hhe.. kalo selama ini gue ogah2an dikenalin ke sodara, anak temen bokap, kenalan tante-nya nyokap, temen-nya temen, dan yang lain-lain, sekarang kayanya yaudahlah. nunggu apa lagi sih gue. hahaha.

humpfhh.. (*hembusan nafas panjang kedua)

better I post the vidio and so the lyrics here

so you (readers) can get what I mean 

heart beats fast

colours and promises

how to be brave?

how can I love when I'm afraid to fall?

but watching you stand alone

all of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

one step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

darling don't be afraid 

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

time stands still beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away what's standing in front of me

every breath

every hour has come to this

one step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

darling don't be afraid 

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

and all along I believed I would find you

time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

humpfhh... (*hembusan nafas panjang ketiga)

Amin ya Allah :'| 

I wanna lie down with someone who whisper "don't worry about the world"

and I'm dreaming about..

having daughter named;

-Winona Mashita Anishawa-

and a son named;

-Erlangga Anasadam-

14.07.11

tidak ada yang abadi di dunia ini sayang..

tentang perhatianku,

ketertarikanku,

kepedulianku..

aku sendiri tak yakin apa aku akan tetap begini dan seperti ini sampai nanti

tak ada yang pasti dan mutlak bisa terjadi sayang..

tentang aku, kamu, kita dan mereka di masa depan

tentang apa yang ada di depan kita sekarang

sesungguhnya, aku tak tau apa yang kurasakan sayang..

apakah ini kesungguhan karna cinta,

atau karna gila

apakah ini tulus dari hati,

atau sekedar menyenangkan diri

sesungguhnya, aku mencari kebahagiaan sayang..

aku sedang mencari, seperti apa rasanya menjadi bebas dan bahagia karenanya

dan aku merasakannya sayang..

merasakan hidup seperti yang mereka rasa

walau terlambat, aku tak peduli sayang..

mungkin aku sedang mencari jalan untuk memuakkan diri dengan hingar bingar seperti ini

agar nanti aku bisa memasuki fase baru kehidupanku dengan tentram dan damai

ya! aku ingin menikah sayang..

tidak denganmu

dengan seseorang yang nyata

yang bukan idola

yang bisa mengajariku tentang hidup yang sesungguhnya

yang bisa menemaniku untuk menciptakan kehidupan yang baru

ya! kami akan menciptakan kehidupan yang baru sayang..

tentang anak-anak kecil lucu yang berlarian sambil tertawa di tengah rumah

tentang cat putih susu yang menempel di dinding

tentang karpet bantal kopi susu yang terhampar di lantai

tentang meja kayu yang dibalut kaca

humpfh..

aku ingin kehidupan seperti itu sayang

aku ingin meninggalkan hingar bingar ini secepatnya

aku ingin menikah sayang

dengan dia..

***

dear my imaginary #futurehusband

once you read, you'll know

this is about you...

my imaginary mom's guide

gue akan ngedidik anak2 gue untuk tanggung jawab sama dirinya sendiri dulu aja.. ngerapihin tempat tidurnya sendiri, cuci bajunya sendiri, setrika bajunya sendiri, ngeberesin kamarnya sendiri.. pokoknya semua yang berhubungan sama dirinya, biar dia yang ngeberesin sendiri.. kalo dia minta dibantu, ya boleh gue bantu.. toh gue ibunya.. tapi gue akan berusaha untuk gak nyuruh dia ngerjain apa2 yang harusnya jadi tanggung jawab gue.. supaya nantinya, dia gak anti sama tanggung-jawab2 itu dan mau ngebantu gue secara sukarela..