dear Allah

dear Allah, I wanna thank sooooooo much to You

I wanna thank to You for making me alive until now
even if I feel dying because of alergy for almost everything I ate,
still I wanna thank to You

I wanna thank to You for keeping my son alive
even if I often gave him imunomodulator, routine medicine and etc to boost his immune,
still I wanna thank to You for making him still with me until now :(

I wanna thank to You for keeping my parents alive

and let me live with them until now

even if there are so many dramas, up and down, happy and mad

I can't say I don't love them

I love them
I really love them
they are grow older

but still I never had the ability to make them happy :(

recently,

I wanna thank to You for making me as a positif covid-19 patient for 24 hours
in that very short time, You showed me much
You showed me how hard my parents efforts to look after my son while I'm not around
seems like You want to show me what will exactly happened if I'm away :(

I feel so guilty

it's hard for them

they are old but they're keep trying to do their best
I shouldn't ask for more :(

dear Allah
I'm sorry for all my mistakes
please let my parents healthy and happy
please let my son healthy and happy
please let me healthy and happy

dear Allah, I love You
I do
I really do
please forgive all of my sins
I am full of sins :( :( :(

my love~

Ki Hoon Oppa's Love Letter (Cinderella's Sister - Korean Drama)

happy birthday to me..

personally, my son's birth is one of the best gift God ever gave me. and I'm so in love with the gift 🖤

I don't know whether my parents think so about my birthday too
but I think they love me
they love me until they don't mind giving care to my son while I go back to work

they ask me to go back to work
they say I'm still too young to be a stay at home mother
they say I'm still too young to spend time at home only, taking care of my son
they say I have to go out
they will taking care of my son for me
then I try..

earlier this year, God answers
I go back to work after vacoom for about 1,5 years
I got a job in the government officer
both of my parents are really happy, since this is their forever dream job for me

and I'm happy to make them happy
yet I sad have to be separated for a while from my son
but it's prohibited for us to give up, isn't it?
this morning I heard ustad in TV station said,
"give up is a sign of hopeless. and in Islam it's prohibited to be hopeless"
so, Bismillahirrahmanirrahiim

happy birthday, love..

I love you~

I love you with no but. Insya Allah

dear love, I will patiently wait for you to ask me anything.. InsyaAllah

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untuk menggambarkan suka ku 

pada dunia dan segala hal yang menghiasinya,

namun untukmu aku tak mampu.

aku hanya bisa bilang sayang

aku sayang kamu anakku

❤