my love~

Ki Hoon Oppa's Love Letter (Cinderella's Sister - Korean Drama)

happy birthday to me..

personally, my son's birth is one of the best gift God ever gave me. and I'm so in love with the gift 🖤

I don't know whether my parents think so about my birthday too
but I think they love me
they love me until they don't mind giving care to my son while I go back to work

they ask me to go back to work
they say I'm still too young to be a stay at home mother
they say I'm still too young to spend time at home only, taking care of my son
they say I have to go out
they will taking care of my son for me
then I try..

earlier this year, God answers
I go back to work after vacoom for about 1,5 years
I got a job in the government officer
both of my parents are really happy, since this is their forever dream job for me

and I'm happy to make them happy
yet I sad have to be separated for a while from my son
but it's prohibited for us to give up, isn't it?
this morning I heard ustad in TV station said,
"give up is a sign of hopeless. and in Islam it's prohibited to be hopeless"
so, Bismillahirrahmanirrahiim

happy birthday, love..

I love you~

I love you with no but. Insya Allah

dear love, I will patiently wait for you to ask me anything.. InsyaAllah

jikalau dulu aku lihai merangkai kata

untuk menggambarkan suka ku 

pada dunia dan segala hal yang menghiasinya,

namun untukmu aku tak mampu.

aku hanya bisa bilang sayang

aku sayang kamu anakku

❤

Dear baby,

Dear baby, I love you. You have to know, I never want to see you sleeping in that bed dear. I never!

One of my friend sent prayer when I told him that you were in hospital. He said, "May your baby get well very soon. And may this condition will ease your sins." 

Me wants to cry ...

Dear baby, if you were got sick because of my sins, I'm sorry darling. I never want to see you sick. I love you. I really love you. Even I love you more than I love myself. I'll give my everything for you, your now, your future. InsyaAllah I'll do my best for you. I'm sorry for being a full of sins mother. I'm sorry for making you feel that way. I'm sorry for making you sick. I'm so sorry. If I could, I would like to replace your position with mine. Let me be the one who sick, and you stay healthy. But I can't.... 

May you will always be under Allah protection dear. And may Allah forgive all my sins. I'm full of sins. I love you darling. I love you. May you get a super speedy recovery. Be healthy again. I love you, love. I love you..