my love is turning 9

#26September

 

#27September

رَبَّنَا أَتِنَا فِى الدُّنْيَا حَسَنَةً وَفِي اْلأَخِرَةِ حَسَنَةً وَقِنَا عَذَابَ النَّارِ

even the psychiatrist judged

"I don't think I have to worry about you because I see your family as a supportive support system"

...... am I just too good at portraying? 

one of my chapter of life, has finally reach an end

for anyone who curious but feels like uneasy to ask, it's a yes...

no worry and no need to feel bad. 

since this has been one of my forever wish for years,

just congratulate me~

and also don't forget to pray me and Ahmad for the brighter future :')

I miss...

Dear Allah, 

I miss to kiss Ahmad without wearing mask. I miss the feeling when our cheek met. I miss to sleep in the same room and same bed, next to him. I miss the way he stare at me while I'm singing for him before sleeping. I miss to take an igs and post it to our private account. I miss it when I wake up earlier so I could kiss him and hug him from back. I miss the way he jump to wake me up if he wake up earlier than me. I miss to interact with him without boundary.. 

Ya Rabb, 

You know everything within the heart

I believe, You know it all too well

let it happen Ya Rabb... 

let it happen

then this ayat cross in my mind:

are You preparing me to entering Your Jannah, Ya Rabb? 

are You planning to let me in? 

let me in Ya Rabb.. 

let me in..