mood swing

yes.. my mood just swing 180 degrees, like always.. I think I have a terrible problem in vindicate something.. should I post a link to my previous place which makes me going crazy too? hah! whatever.. honestly I've been made a promise to myself to not writing something ridiculous here, but I can't stand! I hate it when my freedom taken away from me.. I hate it when my freedom pressed..

yes! I want to take political science for my master degree darn much!.. I want to be a politician.. I wanna be like Angelina Sondakh, Nurul Arifin.. how smart they are when they were talk.. I want to look like them.. since it's not possible anymore for me for being such a model.. *stop dreaming cu! -_-"

but I don't know exactly whether this is just another reason I made.. since I always had a reason for leaving some place.. I've been entering 5 places and leave 4 of them in one year period.. what an insane, crazy and ridiculous I'am.. yes I know it's stupid.. I'm wasting on my time.. but there's no place which able to comfort me.. all of them are not! ya.. I know there's nothing perfect in life.. but may I had something in my life go in smooth way, pls? my love life aura has been dark, should my future too?

pliss noo God.. :( :( :(